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| hmmm...guess I dont have much to say, work is great I love what I do and I stay really busy. this weekend is one of the first times I've had off in quite a while so I decided to just veg out and not do anything... my car broke down the other day and I probably should have tried to fix it today but I didnt want to and its not like I go much of anywhere anyways. if I do need to go anywhere...I dont know I'll figure something out. anyways other than that sometimes I miss being at LU of course when I was there I couldnt wait to leave but now I do miss some of my friends and the random late night things we used to do....here I pretty much go to bed early all the time which is probably good for me. well enough rambling for now. WOW....so this morning I ended up leading worhip for the first time ever and I was by myself, it was a little scary and I was so nervous it wasnt even funny...but I got through it and I think some people may have even got ot worship...who knows I tried and it was a ll a big blur I know that I polayed at least one of the songs super fast...like I made Shane and Shane look slow on that one but its alright everyone made it through it....except that one guy...but we dont really care about him....jk  | | |
| ever felt like you were used, manipulated and abused by someone you care about. it doesn't seem to matter how much it happens it hurts every time. but every time it reminds me of how Christ must have felt, he was betrayed by all of us, sometimes I think by me most of all we've all triend to manipulate our relationship with Him and we have all abused it, yet He still loves us. what an incredible gift we have in a relationship with someone who loves us in spite of ourselves.... | | |
| Weekends here are brutal at times, there is pretty much nothing to do but sit around and think. which has led me to the conclusions that I am at least slightly masochistic...I really enjoy torturing myself, I should stop now. I know that God is in control but I still want control and that leads to my masochistic tendencies...anyways thats all for now. | | |
| Orlando was great I felt like God really oppened doors and Andy has a solid aftercare plan now. Other than that this last weekend I went up to my sisters which was cool, and I've been kinda sick since I got back which isn't really cool... but the RA programm is starting to come together, I'm begining to feel like I am actually accomplishing something, or rather God is accomplishing something through me.
The challenge here for me is working. living, eating, worshipping, and basically doing everything with the same group of men all the time sometimes I feel like I need to get away but theres not much of anywhere to go.... | | |
| I just finished my last class that I've been taking online, wow it feels good to get that over with.
Next week I get to go to Orlando, man is my job tough  , and its all paid for...oh yeah, I will be working some though I have to go down there with one of the guy sfrom here and help him get plugged into a church and set up his aftercare program. The real blessing is that I will get to hang out with my friend Jovan that I haven't seen in over two years, so I'm really pumped. GOd is good. talk to ya'll later | | |
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